I am Blocked ...

Every day when I get up
I want to say good morning to you ..
Every minute when I think of you
I wanna text you to say hi
Each time I have my meals
I want to share it with you 

Every time I sleep 

I wanna gently kiss you and say good night

I wanna feed you a bite 

of every meal I have

I wanna sleep right next to you

feeling every breath you put out

Its not just that
I want to talk over and over
the same thing with you
and laugh as if no one around
I want to write poems
send songs and sayings
to say how much I love you
How much I miss you
when you are not around
I want to say all the sweet words...
Which just flows from my mind
I want to kiss you in the softest way
to make you feel that you are in heaven..

I wanna let u come so deep in me
I wanna let you feel the very end of me
I wanna let you see what my eyes say
I wanna stay right next to you every way

Still with all that I need more
More ways to say how much I love you
more ways to show how much I need you
more ways to make you feel how much I miss you
more ways to let you know that you are my life

But I am blocked
I cant do any of those
except for doing the job
Simply the work you need
I know that..
But I cant filter it
and give you only work
so I am so confused
I dont know how to hide my feelings
I dont know how to show
that you are nothing to me...
I feel so restless and feel so depressed
when I am lost in my feelings
Which is bottled up within me
I cant let it go ..
That is the eternal truth I see

So God please help me
help me to stop loving
loving you from
the very end of my heart !!!