Spirit of Love !!!

There was a day in days back
where you led my dignity go..
You let it washed away
infront of some one
whom I never wanted it to be
Still its just passed by tears
and some hours of silence ..

Every week , almost every day
you pinch my heart ...
where it some times
hurt for hours and even days
Still for all
I covered all that with my
little tears
thou some days are
very much unbearable

There was a day that
you didnt have the trust
to keep me with men
knowing that
it was one firm principle
I had in my life...
Infact I was shocked
to hear what I heard
coz I never expected
you to think as such of me...

In all this time
you were so clear
and firm on your words
saying you never wanted my love ..
you never wanted my care
thou you always ringed back to me
when ever you are in pain
Still I was right there
when ever you wanted
day or night ..week or weekend
No matter where in the world I am
I was one ring away from you

After all you chased me out
With an unbeliviable voice
Which still echo in my mind
And I still wonder whether its you
who made me leave you
whether its you who always wanted
the relationships to be secure
who made me go out in second..

If its not me ..
he may have left you hundred times
he may have hurt you million times
he may have cursed you ones in a while
and may have forgotten you by this time
But
But
this little heart
facing all that
Still willing to remain with you
thou you still trying to kick it off
May be its stupidity
or I am blind..
But still I dont care
all I know is
all what you did
made me love you more and more
made me miss you more and more !!!

I still waits to see you
still waits to hear from you
still stair at my skype
to see a msg from you
and sleep with my mobile
to keep you closer when in need

Isnt this the spirit of love ??
thou you never will understand ??
May be your heart is covered with
things which is not so as love
but will make you keep away from love
Oh !! I wonder
whether still there is something wrong
in me for loving you this way !!!!