I want to spent my life time loving you !!!

I dont know how to say ..

I dont know how to show

I dont know how to express...

How much you mean to me

coz all this time

when ever I want to show you

how much you mean to me

you blocked me to the end

you stopped me saying what I felt

you stopped me saying I love you

You stopped me saying I miss you

it ended up me in tears

Ended in an aching heart

It was so unbearable to stay

right infront of you

keeping all my feelings

closed inside...

I know its not what you wanted from me

I know its not what you wanted me to say

you wanted me to work

Give the best to make your baby grow

But one thing you never realized

how hard it is to be with you

without letting me as me

I just feel that I am pretending

pretending as you are just a one

just a one who is as others

Which I hate

but cant help

coz that is what you need from me

to pretend that you are just

just a CEO to me

But inside my heart

you are everything

every inch of my skin is covered with your touch

every second I live my heart spell your name

Every minute I live I dream of you

I feel the warmth just as you are right beside...

Gosh but all that is stuck inside me

where I am just like a lifeless robot

who cannot express even a single thought

of what I feel inside..

All I know is every breath I take

I take with your name

So I cant take this pain anymore

of having being blocked

in all what I could say...

Love you raththaran !!!!