For the First time

All this time I wanted to be there for you ..

I wanted to share your pain 

I wanted to listen to your words

I wanted to do my best what ever I can 

I wanted to take you to the very deep end of my heart

Where no one else could even reach ..

But for the first time today 

I felt you as the closest 

keep my head and cry 

I know you wont be there 

but my heart just wanted your presence

wanted to keep my head on your lap 

and seek into a comfort of a mother

I simply wanted you to replace a part 

where so far my mother could do ...

I just felt you so deep that 

I wished you were right here

at this very moment 

where my heart wanted such a warmth 

which a mother can give

Still what I couldnt believe is 

my heart only spelled your name

out of all who are around me

as it felt you 

may be as the most comfortable place 

to lean on at this time

I know you may feel it as a disturbance

or may be even as a burden 

on top of all the duties you have

I also know that you cant ful fil that need

Where I can lean on to you 

when ever I need

But still my heart doesnt admit it

and for the first time in my life

I just felt your presence 

where I wanted my mum to be...

Love you so much...and I dont know what to say 

but just couldnt believe why I am looking for a comfort from you 

by being a burden to you with all the heap of work you have

I just wanted to make your work easy

and help you , and care for you , and love you to the best 

So far only and only i just wanted to give you love

its just today so strange to see that 

I felt your need for my life .....

I felt I am all alone without any one 

and I washed my tears with your memory in heart !!!