She is Calling ..............

“If you are going to love me then love me deeply

If you are going to break my heart then please break it all

If you are going to care then care for me completely

If you decide not to hold me then just let me fall

If you are going to stay then stay forever and if you want to leave then do it today

If you are going to change then change for the better

And if you are going to talk please mean what you say ”

I dont know why , 

I dont know what for , 

She is calling me every day ...

Which makes me feel more and more down..

I wish to talk 

To talk the same way as I did before 

but it was not the same way she rings me now..

In the past there was a time 

she was on the phone the whole day with me even at work 

She calls until she sleep 

until she get into her sweet dreams

and gets up with my morning call 

There was a time where I knew 

all what she did ..

where she go what she do 

whether she had her meals, 

All her tears I wiped out 

when ever she needed 

all her pain i shared 

when ever i saw her in tears

She was just like a miracle

smiled up on my life

that was a time she needed me

she felt my love may be

and I even felt that she has a need for me 

which is not there anymore

I dont know how 

and I dont know when 

but things have changed 

from her end now

its just a matter of few seconds a day

she needs me now 

but even for that few seconds 

I dont know why she needs me ..

When I just trying to move on

leaving her a side

leaving that beautiful memory a side

and leaving the best part of my heart a side

She comes back with a smile..

I am trying something impossible may be

but i keep on trying 

but when she calls even for a second

again I get my self lost

in that dream for days and days !!!

No No No ..

I will not , I should not ...

I will let her go 

some how some way 

I will do that 

Living with loneliness 

is far more better 

coz I have the certainty that

Loneliness will be with me forever !!!!

“I am sitting here all by myself
just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something or anything
just to keep me away from thinking of you
But you know it is not working out

coz you are all that is on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind"